(I hesitate to blog because I have discovered I am an introvert at heart and will do anything not to be seen or heard. Funny thing, in a blog I'm neither seen nor heard. So I let myself do it believing that no one will read it except me and the random, accidental tourist in Ardenland.)
2012 Goal:Fitness.
Sure (wink. wink) It's still January and everyone has a New Year's resolution that has a little fire under it's-er- butt and/or belly. Every year I claim to make it the one where I lose X number of pounds by my birthday in October - 10 months is enough time, right? The goal never happens."Why is it my goal every year?" I'm glad you asked.
I like my size. I don't want to buy new clothes. My husband doesn't complain. So why is it on the 'accomplish' list every year? Honestly? Maybe that's just what feels right on December 31st when I plan the yearly goals. Maybe it's one thing that stays on the list every year and I would like to scratch it off. Maybe I fear....obesity.....hiding behind pillows on the couch because my belly sticks out......outgrowing my jeans.....continuing a unhealthy legacy that has plagued my family for at least 3 generations. For me? For my girls? To change my family tree?
I want to believe this year the why is just so I can say I did it. For me. To prove to myself only (and the one or two who may read this out of boredom) that I have the will power, drive, strength, ability, and whatever it takes to do something that I want to do. Out of pride -possibly. Maybe the lack of pride was my demise previously. I'll be able to say "HA! See there Annual Goal List - I did it. Scratch it off."
The goal is not huge and I don't believe I am huge either. A personal, stabilized weight is good for everyone to maintain.
That's what's so ridiculous - some people lose 10x's more weight than I want.
That's what's so possible - losing 10x's less than some people.
"What's the magic number you ask?"
Don't you know never ask a lady her age or weight? I have a number in my head, but as I move down to that goal, I am willing to tweak it lower or higher dependent upon good health.
"Hey introvert! Why blog about such personal topic?" (you sure ask a lot of questions)
I want to keep a record of the process and hope that if it works it might inspire others to go after what they want. I don't want a movie deal out of it. I just want to track the goal of Going down!